Is this a dream?
Posted by Heather Methven on Aug 05, 2011
Is this a dream? Is this really our reality? Why is this happening? How did this happen? Is there really no cure? How are we supposed to get through this? When will the pain go away? How am I supposed to help my sister and sister-in-law through this unfair and catastrophic situation? How will we ever live without our precious, spirited, delightful little curly red headed girl?
These are some of the questions I had when I first found out about Stella’s devastating diagnosis and these are still the questions I have today.
It has been a little over a month since we learned about Stella’s diagnosis and the pain and helplessness is stronger than ever. It is agonizing to imagine life without Stella. It is heartbreaking to see my sister and sister-in-law fall apart, go through so much despair and depression and know that there is nothing you can say or do to take away their pain. I try to be strong and brave in front of them and others but I myself am deteriorating inside. The only thing keeping me from having a nervous break down is seeing how courageous and heroic Mishi and Aimee have been through these last couple of weeks.
Mishi and Aimee are emotionally and physically exhausted, yet they wake up every morning and make sure Stella has the best day she possibly can. Stella has had an abundance of play dates and trips to her favourite places. She is a jubilant and vivacious little girl who looks forward to a new adventure every day with her mommies.
I am overwhelmed and grateful for all the love and support Mishi and Aimee have received from family members, friends and even strangers. It is a testament to their integrity and character.
I am so honoured and fortunate to have Mishi, Aimee and Stella in my life. I cannot imagine life without Stella saying those magical words “I love you auntie”. I will never give up hope for my bubbas!!
Love, Auntie Heather