Posted by Mishi Methven on May 20, 2013
They call it heartache because your heart really does hurt. I’ve found it so interesting that grief and mourning is such a physical process. Of course your mind is constantly churning out messages to you, but it’s my body that often gives up at the end of the day. My brain throbs from working so hard to not think about Stella every second as I go through the motions of life. My heart aches from missing her so much. My throat hurts from swallowing tears and pain hour after hour. My shoulders and neck burn from carrying all the stress around. My arms and legs seize from the sheer effort of forcing them to keep mechanically moving when I just want to curl into a ball and disappear.
I hurt all the time. Sometimes it’s intense and overwhelming pain, but most often it’s just a dull ache that niggles at me… Read more